Just a few words today

I am packing. I hate it.
Plenty of tiny pieces of me in a box.
In the meantime, my creativity went completely dry.
I don't feel like writing, which sounds like a normal blackout, considering the moment.
Once back in Italy, I will get back to my Words.

There's plenty that needs to be shared.
For the moment, I am sorrounded by boxes and piles of clothes.
My cat is looking at me with that expression.
He knows, deep inside...
It's a shame that personal development has to go through grades of separation.
But it is also needed. And healthy.
I feel energised for my new beginning.
Which looks pretty bright.
And it's not a start, anyway.
It's just another phase, the next step.
Forward.

...Another Proof

This past weekend has been truly amazing. Barcelona is blossoming and getting at its best, just like every spring. It's one of the shames of my departure... Not that Italy isn't a wonderful place to be, especially during this season. But in any case, I must admit that the presence of the beach, right off the city centre, makes a gigantic difference and turns Barcelona into a special mix of ancient buildings, modern people and sunny sand strips.

The world is blossoming and I flower along with it.

However, I must go.

I have gone as far as I could here and I am sure I have done everything I had to. The time is right for several reasons and there is no point in sticking to attachment. I experienced a weird but clear feeling and acknowledged the fact that another phase of my busy yet magical life just opened up.

How do I feel?

Well, just like every person with a lot of suitcases, I am a bit confused. I look around my room, trying to count how many shoes, books, dresses, bags, scarves, cats (luckily just one), accessories and lotions I managed to collect during these past two years. The answer is A Lot.

However, for the first time in my life, I feel completely content with my choices. There is some sort of lucky star guiding me and I can perceive its power without struggling too much to read signs. It's just there, shining.

My latest horoscopes have been simply great, telling me how energized, happy, satisfied, complete and convinced I should be. And for once I agree with them. I do feel like an A+ Fact, in spite of the recent losses of my "certainties".

I have spent a few weeks now without reading the news. I am not aware of the most updated bad news with regards to the decline of the empire. And once more, I have got to say that it feels so good not to know how many people got fired last week worldwide.

I am one of those, anyway. So let's say that we can share some mercy and unite each other in the Worldwide Movement of People that got Kicked Out. Kicked out of where? Of the system, of the box, down the train, off the boot. Does it matter? Not really. The train slowed down anyway while the system is cracking and the box is wide open, letting go years and years of secrets and lies. The boot has always been more confortable somewhere else anyway. All I can say is No Big Deal.

This past Friday I got another proof that my Karma is great. This cutie spent almost half hour going up and down my arms and legs. She was telling me how I have no reason to worry and I agreed.

Someone else once sang... Everything is gonna be alright...

My Karma is Great

I ended up writing a new Tickle, disclosing my plans and what happened to me in the past few weeks.

I must say that this first week of unemployment has been light and easy. And I am not saying it with a full bank account... On the opposite, I am on a very tight budget, with the company owning me way too much money. But I have the crystal clear feeling that I have never felt this good before.

It is funny how we manage to turn our life into something we don't actually like. I happened to love my job. I truly did. But - as I said in the Tickle - I made someone else rich.

On the other hand, I learned lessons that go beyond professionalism. And I had the unique chance to look at myself and assess my status. What I saw is extremely pleasant. I do like myself, my personality and the path that took me here.

I have other pockets to fill. My eyes are longing for more. My hands are asking for mud... I feel like being exahusted. For a good cause though.

These days are weird, as it always happens when we encounter ourselves at turning points. But I am enjoying every bit of these weeks, spreading love and taking care of myself and my beloved ones.

No one else deserves my attention right now. The superior energy ruling everything will take care of those that hurt me.

I am good. My karma is great...

Tuesday Full Moon hit hard on me. Put things back into perspective and helped me enormously to balance my emotions, shaking me from head to toe.

This is not a separation. It's just part of the journey.

Sunny Barcelona and others A+ Facts

Barcelona is finally welcoming my most-beloved season, Spring. It is a mixed feeling of rejuvenated emotions, willingness to go out and breathe, and talk and smile. And even to Love, at a Universal level.

While Earth wakes up and gives birth to pink blossoms and cute guys, I get ready for my next jump. It's been a while since I last turned my life upside-down and this new phase is an exciting bubble floating in my head.

I lost my job, which happens to be one of the best news of the past five years. After all the energy and commitment I devoted to my daily work, I have been kicked out without money nor real explanation, along with all the other workers of the company and I am now one of the characters involved in a weird knot of illegal modus operandi and bad management.

I realized how little my personality and proactive attitude have been valued by the company and how easy it has been for the top management to get rid of anyone for the sake of their own survival. Illegality was the rule and right now I am just glad to be out of there, having finally understood the gigantic hidden trap.

My plan is to head back to Italy for a few months, spending some quality time with family and friends. And then leave for my great trip on July 3rd, with a ticket for momentarily 10 weeks of Pure Life.

I have been quite disconnected these past few days and didn't check to much about our friends, the Planets and their rollercoaster... Tomorrow I will definitely devote sometime to a deeper update.

However, I can already anticipate that tonight's 94% full moon is quite a show herself and cannot wait for the upcoming Full Moon on Wednesday.

Today I have spent part of the afternoon in a tiny and cozy tea place in the Gothic area of Barcelona, Caj Chai, and I drank a litre or so of fennel infusion, great to purify my organism after a fun but exahusting weekend.

All in all, I'd say that Facts are great and I am living something quite similar to a Magical Moment.

A.

P.S. I lost myself on Google looking for a picture and I ended up visiting this website about Mind Mapping... Got to go and dive into it for a bit.

Spreading the News...

... To explain myself once for all. This blog is listed in some directories and other sources and I usually tag it as travel blog.

Why? You might wonder. Where is the traveling? The discovery? The report? The pictures and the bureaucracy issues? The inner growth, that crescent feeling of emotional development, chasing you while you open your eyes wider...??? OK, let's say it... Here I serve it for you... Warm!

I got a flight ticket
(A bit more than a simple A+ Fact)

...

And I won't tell you where I am going.

Because traveling is definitely a state of mind. But to do it for real, it's much better.
This is the beginning of the story of this part of my life, where dream and reality slowly dissolve one into another and I am not able to discern their roots. While trying to solve this time-consuming issue, I have decided to cut it at its very beginning. I made the dream turn reality, and viceversa. And there hides the greatest present of all, when reality turns into dream... Nothing matters, only the Whole of You.

Your Journey is yours and you are drawing lines on the map. Where have you been? Where are you going? And, most important, where are you Now?

For those that care about Their Truth, keep reading and let's dream about it.

A.

The C Factor Part III

C things I left behind in the past 12 hours:

1. Corporation
2. Company
3. Careless people

C things to be left behind in the next 30 days:

1. Country

Others To Be Done:

1. Cabs
2. Crisis
3. Craziness

I have never liked Cs anyway, very mediocre.

The New Version of the Ant and the Cicada Story

First, I learned something new. Originally there was a Cicada, shallow and shopaholic. Not a Grasshopper, an animal I actually don't like... Nor I like the Cicada but that's another story, about me and my tough relationship with insects.

Anyway, once there was the Ant, saver and thoughtful. She was able to look forward, calculating expenses, saving seeds and tiny pieces of whatever for the cold cold winter. The Cicada, jigging about through hot and shiny summers, wouldn't bother with savings and other $ issues.

Whatever, she'd hum, strolling back into her condo hideout, skinny arms full of nothing but joy. The Ant, in the meantime, wouldn't stop accumulating. I need to save, I need to have, she'd stress.

Then the seed crisis came. A windy, stormy, unpredictable tragedy, whose effects no one was able to imagine.

The Ant, who had spent years accumulating all her goods into a private storage, smartly located just a few blocks from her tiny, modest studio, rushed to collect her things back.

"Sorry, we are closed. No withdraw today." Said a note on the storage's main entrance.

She didn't loose control and went back the day after.

"Sorry, we are still closed. No withdraw today. Nor tomorrow." Another note informed.

The Ant felt a little weird discomfort tapping at the bottom of her stomach. Nevermind, she solved.

The fourth day, she literally ran to finally get all her thingy things back.

"Sorry, we are officially closed. For good."

She was surrounded by a wide crowd of nervous ants, knocking with arms and legs at the door of the storage... And we all know that ants do have power. Eventually, they managed to dismantle the reinforced concrete door. Once inside, they couldn't repress their shock at the view of the inescapable emptiness of the space.



This is a scam! It's all gone. Oh my god. How are we going to survive? Please call an ambulance, I am fainting... The drama lasted for hours and the media couldn't help reporting the breaking news.

"Ants' lifetime savings are gone, for good."

And what about the Cicada? You might wonder...

The Cicada is out, having dinner with her friends, dressed up with her newest shopping-spree acquisition. Her fridge is empty today and she thought it'd be a good idea to have a bite out. She just got back from a weekend with her boyfriend, which was great "in spite of the new hotel we chose.. You know, not that great. But we need to be a little careful, with this crisis!"


Nothing changed in her life and nothing will, as long as she has a job and she keeps buying and eating her seeds. She won't stop spending, wasting, shopping, consuming. She loves it and that's all that matters.

The crisis taught all of us a great lesson. The Cicada and the Ant were both right, doing what they were doing and behaving like they did. But... A few details have to be kept in mind.

It's ok to save... Although you'd better be sure where you store your goods.
It's ok to live... Why cut out from our lives the few pleasures we have?

It's even better to save while living... The crisis is made of people and we need to help each other.
If you still have a job, enjoy your free time and keep paying for certain services... (...Women: manicure, pedicure, hairdresser, basic clothing needs, the yoga course, a special present from time to time, a dinner out with friends... C'mon! Men: vitamins and proteins for the muscles, clothes for the office/sport, the gym membership, a drink with mates, the latest videogame, that fancy watch strap you saw in the jewellry store, I saw you staring at it!)

There is no point in modifying our habits dramatically, altering our mood and the one of those around us... All in all, we still have our greatest presents with us: Ourselves living life on Earth.

This short story was inspired by a great Article written by Ms. Vera Montanari (Director) on the Italian magazine Grazia.

The C Factor Part II

More C things I need to leave behind...

(1. Cabs)
2. Crisis
3. Craziness

...And the list can only grow.

A+ Fact of the Day: I am Alive.

The C Factor

Things I need to get rid of, whose spelling starts with a C...

1. Cabs

More to be Announced.

Let's Identify the Situation... Or Maybe Not

Barcelona's sky today is quite grey, extremely luminous, just as if clouds could break into tinypieces any moment, leaving the sun free to shine.

I had a slow weekend, with not too many highs and lows. I needed to maintain the coolness, try to stay as healthy as posible, rest and be surrounded by love. I believe I accomplished the mission.

My cat is sitting next to me, while I am typing. There is a candle on and a soft lamp. It would be a perfect scene, if only... But I have a bug in my head... Still. One thought about it.

Why do we allow tangling issues to fill out every free corner of our mind? How can humans learn to detach? Ok, I am not raising any new question here. I know some people would recommend yoga, some other oriental practices, cooking, sleeping, running, taking a bath, having a drink and so on. Displaying a wide range of possible escapes, for any taste and appetite, against stress, towards self-management and development.

But right now, I am not sure whether any of these ideas would work, if applied. I am finding peace inside, in the depth. My blood is calm. My soul is at peace with herself. I am not in need for self-questioning. I am aware of My answers and currently not seeking any special rescue or intervention. Some would say, I'm just fine, or even good.

Now, coming to the end of this mind-stream, I happen to realize. I am good, indeed. We - as human beings - are so good at getting in trouble, even when there is no apparent problem around.

When we do have things to solve - that's how I feel now - we cannot separate their influence from our daily mood. A mix of anger, willingness to be positive, instants of peace, seconds of desperation... Stir and serve: your daily ups and downs! Coming to me. I am relaxing slowly, while typing, which leads me to a fundamental conclusion. I am actually aware of My Way to calm down.

I fight not only the flattening effects of 2D screens, but also the unbearable bitter taste of daily bugs, with the invisible colours of words.

A+ Facts:
- I saw my friend Chia and spent some quality time with her.
- I ate healthy food throughout the weekend.
- I drank quite a lot of infusions. Yummi Oriental: clove, cinnamon, orange, anis, fennel... Mhm!
- Now I achieved a status of - hopefully durable - good mood...
- ...And I did it through writing.
- Something is telling me that today I will write another Tickle.
- I am reading a nice one on "Robin Hood is Ba(ra)ck!"

Sometimes we should just remind ourselves that Now is such a precious time.


A.