Me, My Shoes & The Endless Search for Soul Food

Sunday Bananas and other Random Thoughts

2009-11-01T11:40:00.005+01:00

While London is drowning under rain, I wake up and try to keep up the mood.
There is plenty to worry about lately.
International affairs are keeping my head busy. How can people just avoid looking at what is going on? Ok, I guess this moment of global panic comes after reading few books that contributed to an additional wake up call.

The latest - I must recommend it - is The Shock Doctrine by Naomi Klein, best known for her No Logo. The book is an informative and yes, shocking excursus from the Fifties till the Iraq war that explains and proves with breathtaking clarity the path and growth of Disaster Capitalism.
It's the perfect reading for those really willing to understand more of the tangled dynamics of our poor Western - and not - World.

In the meantime, while the powerful ones are keeping an eye open towards the next crisis to profit from, Italy is sinking deeper into scandals.

Just like today's Guardian headline:

Silvio Berlusconi says he will stay on as Italy's PM even if convicted in court

From good to great I guess. Even after seeing the immunity law sacked from the Constitutional Court, he tried to amend the terms for limitation in order to ensure that the current law suits against him end up in dust. However - for once - the President of Italy, Mr. Napolitano - sent the drafted law straight back to Parliament. Which means nothing in practice. In fact, if the Parliament approves it again, he will be forced to sign it and the change will start operating... Last source of hope would be a claim of unconstitutionality. Not sure about that though.

Soon we will see Mr. Berlusconi back to Court to attend the Appeal trial that sees him as corrupter of his UK lawyer, Mr. Mills. All great stories to talk about, in a country hit hard by unemployment and where SMEs are struggling to get to the end of the month, not even the year.

I guess Parliament is so busy trying to save the feathers of our PM that everything else can easily be stuck on the corner, on hold till the real collapse occurs.

Bottom-line: they ate all the Bananas and now we are left with the skin (if so).

In the meantime, I am trying to make my way to breakfast - Sunday morning without a proper one is no Sunday. To then devote most of this rainy day to keep up with the research I am doing. Due to my professional engagement, I am trying to learn more about Behavioural Change. The book Performance, by Robin Stuart-Kotze, is landing me a hand at the moment.
I have always laughed at those reading guru books, especially if linked to business. The bottom line was "Can't you do it yourself?"... But now I came to realise that when you are inside the project, part of it, engine of it, supervisor of it and so on, few suggestions - external ones - might be handy.

Off to eggs, juice, yogurt, coffee and everything I could possibly feel like in this horrible London day.

Out of Space - Analogic London

2009-10-29T23:08:00.004+01:00

It's been too long. It's been hard to find time.
To breathe. To live.
I am glad to say I am finding the strenght to make London my new home.

London is another one of those love&hate relationships I so easily get into.

Here is a visual diary of my life, as per now. I am finding new joy in analogic photography. It's such an emotion to get the film developed to re-discover shots taken and already forgotten.

Ducks lounging - view from my balcony.

Phat Phuc Noodle Bar - More than a restaurant, an institution.

London Pagoda in Battersea Park and Battersea Power Station in the background.

My beloved Ransome's Dock - Home.

View from my balcony No. 2 - Thames oriented.

I need to get back to writing. I need to find time and energy to put my thoughts into words.
There is a lot going on in the world.
Politics, international affairs, shoes, cocktails.
So much to talk about.

Inshallah - if God wants - I will be back soon.

Mad-Hatting here and there...

2009-06-08T18:50:00.006+02:00

I lost touch with this virtual reality due to an intense dive into physical truth.

These past couple of months have taught me one of the greatest lessons of all.

You never know.

And it's so freaking true... I did make plans. And I did believe in every single drop of them.

But then. The unexpected.

So, to make it concrete. These are the latest news. Might be hard to digest but life does not always taste like candy! A+ facts and other meaningful events:

- I am happily in love with my Life but not planning final details for my India's Trip.
- My life took one of those detours leading up north.
- London is The Place.
- Amazing opportunity... Another proof that my Karma was in great shape, indeed.
- Italy. Two months and a half. Life is hard. Family as well. And I love both.
- These days are hectic but things look marvelous (...I think I do too, due to general satisfaction).
- Weddings, parties, trips... Friends are forever and that's a fact.
- Can't wait to organise a quicky in Barcelona, miss everyone.
- Wednesday is Birth Day (like the detached version, sounds more cheerful).
- One thing I truly adore about my life... When I happen to start behaving, something happens that...

Running through life with a torch in my hand, I found a hole and couldn't help jumping in.

A.

Now is such a precious time

2009-04-23T00:53:00.018+02:00

An Osho card called Silence says "Now is such a precious time" and I agree. This is quite a special moment.
But these days are not for talking nor for writing.
I am diving in deep silence, within myself, in spite of all the words I am sharing with family and friends.
Relocating is never easy. That I know.
Although satisfied and at peace with my decision, I now find myself trying hard to balance my steps and avoid falls.
This is why I am leaving the task of explaining my Here and Now (let's say my last month) to some pictures.
There will be days for written words.
This journey is getting tougher and I need to accomodate it, without fighting.
And I'll have to make sure to gather all the energy I can possibly find.
From within.

After a few days of packing, we were all quite stressed.
Even my cat couldn't help feeling weird.
Those boxes around my apartment were the clear sign of imminent change. In spite of how exciting these phases are, I did feel shaky. Is it because I am a true grown up?
I had the chance to put together some initial thoughts about my relocation in Egypt... And my mind spinned at her best, staring at those endless landscapes.

And then what? Bologna city welcomed me with her mixed vibrations and invisible horizon. Compensated by the warm hug of those I love.

Next week I will be in London. New scenario, again. And that unique smell of fresh opportunities.

A.

New Beginning

2009-04-16T01:24:00.002+02:00

I am back.
Soon, very soon, some words about this new beginning.

A.

Just a few words today

2009-03-22T15:53:00.004+01:00

I am packing. I hate it.
Plenty of tiny pieces of me in a box.
In the meantime, my creativity went completely dry.
I don't feel like writing, which sounds like a normal blackout, considering the moment.
Once back in Italy, I will get back to my Words.

There's plenty that needs to be shared.
For the moment, I am sorrounded by boxes and piles of clothes.
My cat is looking at me with that expression.
He knows, deep inside...
It's a shame that personal development has to go through grades of separation.
But it is also needed. And healthy.
I feel energised for my new beginning.
Which looks pretty bright.
And it's not a start, anyway.
It's just another phase, the next step.
Forward.

...Another Proof

2009-03-16T11:01:00.007+01:00

This past weekend has been truly amazing. Barcelona is blossoming and getting at its best, just like every spring. It's one of the shames of my departure... Not that Italy isn't a wonderful place to be, especially during this season. But in any case, I must admit that the presence of the beach, right off the city centre, makes a gigantic difference and turns Barcelona into a special mix of ancient buildings, modern people and sunny sand strips.

The world is blossoming and I flower along with it.

However, I must go.

I have gone as far as I could here and I am sure I have done everything I had to. The time is right for several reasons and there is no point in sticking to attachment. I experienced a weird but clear feeling and acknowledged the fact that another phase of my busy yet magical life just opened up.

How do I feel?

Well, just like every person with a lot of suitcases, I am a bit confused. I look around my room, trying to count how many shoes, books, dresses, bags, scarves, cats (luckily just one), accessories and lotions I managed to collect during these past two years. The answer is A Lot.

However, for the first time in my life, I feel completely content with my choices. There is some sort of lucky star guiding me and I can perceive its power without struggling too much to read signs. It's just there, shining.

My latest horoscopes have been simply great, telling me how energized, happy, satisfied, complete and convinced I should be. And for once I agree with them. I do feel like an A+ Fact, in spite of the recent losses of my "certainties".

I have spent a few weeks now without reading the news. I am not aware of the most updated bad news with regards to the decline of the empire. And once more, I have got to say that it feels so good not to know how many people got fired last week worldwide.

I am one of those, anyway. So let's say that we can share some mercy and unite each other in the Worldwide Movement of People that got Kicked Out. Kicked out of where? Of the system, of the box, down the train, off the boot. Does it matter? Not really. The train slowed down anyway while the system is cracking and the box is wide open, letting go years and years of secrets and lies. The boot has always been more confortable somewhere else anyway. All I can say is No Big Deal.

This past Friday I got another proof that my Karma is great. This cutie spent almost half hour going up and down my arms and legs. She was telling me how I have no reason to worry and I agreed.

Someone else once sang... Everything is gonna be alright...

My Karma is Great

2009-03-12T17:48:00.005+01:00

I ended up writing a new Tickle, disclosing my plans and what happened to me in the past few weeks.

I must say that this first week of unemployment has been light and easy. And I am not saying it with a full bank account... On the opposite, I am on a very tight budget, with the company owning me way too much money. But I have the crystal clear feeling that I have never felt this good before.

It is funny how we manage to turn our life into something we don't actually like. I happened to love my job. I truly did. But - as I said in the Tickle - I made someone else rich.

On the other hand, I learned lessons that go beyond professionalism. And I had the unique chance to look at myself and assess my status. What I saw is extremely pleasant. I do like myself, my personality and the path that took me here.

I have other pockets to fill. My eyes are longing for more. My hands are asking for mud... I feel like being exahusted. For a good cause though.

These days are weird, as it always happens when we encounter ourselves at turning points. But I am enjoying every bit of these weeks, spreading love and taking care of myself and my beloved ones.

No one else deserves my attention right now. The superior energy ruling everything will take care of those that hurt me.

I am good. My karma is great...

Tuesday Full Moon hit hard on me. Put things back into perspective and helped me enormously to balance my emotions, shaking me from head to toe.

This is not a separation. It's just part of the journey.

Sunny Barcelona and others A+ Facts

2009-03-08T21:33:00.007+01:00

Barcelona is finally welcoming my most-beloved season, Spring. It is a mixed feeling of rejuvenated emotions, willingness to go out and breathe, and talk and smile. And even to Love, at a Universal level.

While Earth wakes up and gives birth to pink blossoms and cute guys, I get ready for my next jump. It's been a while since I last turned my life upside-down and this new phase is an exciting bubble floating in my head.

I lost my job, which happens to be one of the best news of the past five years. After all the energy and commitment I devoted to my daily work, I have been kicked out without money nor real explanation, along with all the other workers of the company and I am now one of the characters involved in a weird knot of illegal modus operandi and bad management.

I realized how little my personality and proactive attitude have been valued by the company and how easy it has been for the top management to get rid of anyone for the sake of their own survival. Illegality was the rule and right now I am just glad to be out of there, having finally understood the gigantic hidden trap.

My plan is to head back to Italy for a few months, spending some quality time with family and friends. And then leave for my great trip on July 3rd, with a ticket for momentarily 10 weeks of Pure Life.

I have been quite disconnected these past few days and didn't check to much about our friends, the Planets and their rollercoaster... Tomorrow I will definitely devote sometime to a deeper update.

However, I can already anticipate that tonight's 94% full moon is quite a show herself and cannot wait for the upcoming Full Moon on Wednesday.

Today I have spent part of the afternoon in a tiny and cozy tea place in the Gothic area of Barcelona, Caj Chai, and I drank a litre or so of fennel infusion, great to purify my organism after a fun but exahusting weekend.

All in all, I'd say that Facts are great and I am living something quite similar to a Magical Moment.

A.

P.S. I lost myself on Google looking for a picture and I ended up visiting this website about Mind Mapping... Got to go and dive into it for a bit.

Spreading the News...

2009-03-07T03:34:00.009+01:00

... To explain myself once for all. This blog is listed in some directories and other sources and I usually tag it as travel blog.

Why? You might wonder. Where is the traveling? The discovery? The report? The pictures and the bureaucracy issues? The inner growth, that crescent feeling of emotional development, chasing you while you open your eyes wider...??? OK, let's say it... Here I serve it for you... Warm!

I got a flight ticket
(A bit more than a simple A+ Fact)

...

And I won't tell you where I am going.

Because traveling is definitely a state of mind. But to do it for real, it's much better.
This is the beginning of the story of this part of my life, where dream and reality slowly dissolve one into another and I am not able to discern their roots. While trying to solve this time-consuming issue, I have decided to cut it at its very beginning. I made the dream turn reality, and viceversa. And there hides the greatest present of all, when reality turns into dream... Nothing matters, only the Whole of You.

Your Journey is yours and you are drawing lines on the map. Where have you been? Where are you going? And, most important, where are you Now?

For those that care about Their Truth, keep reading and let's dream about it.

The C Factor Part III

2009-03-04T12:09:00.003+01:00

C things I left behind in the past 12 hours:

1. Corporation
2. Company
3. Careless people

C things to be left behind in the next 30 days:

1. Country

Others To Be Done:

1. Cabs
2. Crisis
3. Craziness

I have never liked Cs anyway, very mediocre.

The New Version of the Ant and the Cicada Story

2009-03-02T22:32:00.023+01:00

First, I learned something new. Originally there was a Cicada, shallow and shopaholic. Not a Grasshopper, an animal I actually don't like... Nor I like the Cicada but that's another story, about me and my tough relationship with insects.

Anyway, once there was the Ant, saver and thoughtful. She was able to look forward, calculating expenses, saving seeds and tiny pieces of whatever for the cold cold winter. The Cicada, jigging about through hot and shiny summers, wouldn't bother with savings and other $ issues.

Whatever, she'd hum, strolling back into her condo hideout, skinny arms full of nothing but joy. The Ant, in the meantime, wouldn't stop accumulating. I need to save, I need to have, she'd stress.

Then the seed crisis came. A windy, stormy, unpredictable tragedy, whose effects no one was able to imagine.

The Ant, who had spent years accumulating all her goods into a private storage, smartly located just a few blocks from her tiny, modest studio, rushed to collect her things back.

"Sorry, we are closed. No withdraw today." Said a note on the storage's main entrance.

She didn't loose control and went back the day after.

"Sorry, we are still closed. No withdraw today. Nor tomorrow." Another note informed.

The Ant felt a little weird discomfort tapping at the bottom of her stomach. Nevermind, she solved.

The fourth day, she literally ran to finally get all her thingy things back.

"Sorry, we are officially closed. For good."

She was surrounded by a wide crowd of nervous ants, knocking with arms and legs at the door of the storage... And we all know that ants do have power. Eventually, they managed to dismantle the reinforced concrete door. Once inside, they couldn't repress their shock at the view of the inescapable emptiness of the space.

This is a scam! It's all gone. Oh my god. How are we going to survive? Please call an ambulance, I am fainting... The drama lasted for hours and the media couldn't help reporting the breaking news.

"Ants' lifetime savings are gone, for good."

And what about the Cicada? You might wonder...

The Cicada is out, having dinner with her friends, dressed up with her newest shopping-spree acquisition. Her fridge is empty today and she thought it'd be a good idea to have a bite out. She just got back from a weekend with her boyfriend, which was great "in spite of the new hotel we chose.. You know, not that great. But we need to be a little careful, with this crisis!"

Nothing changed in her life and nothing will, as long as she has a job and she keeps buying and eating her seeds. She won't stop spending, wasting, shopping, consuming. She loves it and that's all that matters.

The crisis taught all of us a great lesson. The Cicada and the Ant were both right, doing what they were doing and behaving like they did. But... A few details have to be kept in mind.

It's ok to save... Although you'd better be sure where you store your goods.
It's ok to live... Why cut out from our lives the few pleasures we have?

It's even better to save while living... The crisis is made of people and we need to help each other.
If you still have a job, enjoy your free time and keep paying for certain services... (...Women: manicure, pedicure, hairdresser, basic clothing needs, the yoga course, a special present from time to time, a dinner out with friends... C'mon! Men: vitamins and proteins for the muscles, clothes for the office/sport, the gym membership, a drink with mates, the latest videogame, that fancy watch strap you saw in the jewellry store, I saw you staring at it!)

There is no point in modifying our habits dramatically, altering our mood and the one of those around us... All in all, we still have our greatest presents with us: Ourselves living life on Earth.

This short story was inspired by a great Article written by Ms. Vera Montanari (Director) on the Italian magazine Grazia.

The C Factor Part II

2009-03-02T21:32:00.002+01:00

More C things I need to leave behind...

(1. Cabs)
2. Crisis
3. Craziness

...And the list can only grow.

A+ Fact of the Day: I am Alive.

The C Factor

2009-03-01T22:48:00.004+01:00

Things I need to get rid of, whose spelling starts with a C...

1. Cabs

More to be Announced.

Let's Identify the Situation... Or Maybe Not

2009-03-01T17:55:00.008+01:00

Barcelona's sky today is quite grey, extremely luminous, just as if clouds could break into tinypieces any moment, leaving the sun free to shine.

I had a slow weekend, with not too many highs and lows. I needed to maintain the coolness, try to stay as healthy as posible, rest and be surrounded by love. I believe I accomplished the mission.

My cat is sitting next to me, while I am typing. There is a candle on and a soft lamp. It would be a perfect scene, if only... But I have a bug in my head... Still. One thought about it.

Why do we allow tangling issues to fill out every free corner of our mind? How can humans learn to detach? Ok, I am not raising any new question here. I know some people would recommend yoga, some other oriental practices, cooking, sleeping, running, taking a bath, having a drink and so on. Displaying a wide range of possible escapes, for any taste and appetite, against stress, towards self-management and development.

But right now, I am not sure whether any of these ideas would work, if applied. I am finding peace inside, in the depth. My blood is calm. My soul is at peace with herself. I am not in need for self-questioning. I am aware of My answers and currently not seeking any special rescue or intervention. Some would say, I'm just fine, or even good.

Now, coming to the end of this mind-stream, I happen to realize. I am good, indeed. We - as human beings - are so good at getting in trouble, even when there is no apparent problem around.

When we do have things to solve - that's how I feel now - we cannot separate their influence from our daily mood. A mix of anger, willingness to be positive, instants of peace, seconds of desperation... Stir and serve: your daily ups and downs! Coming to me. I am relaxing slowly, while typing, which leads me to a fundamental conclusion. I am actually aware of My Way to calm down.

I fight not only the flattening effects of 2D screens, but also the unbearable bitter taste of daily bugs, with the invisible colours of words.

A+ Facts:
- I saw my friend Chia and spent some quality time with her.
- I ate healthy food throughout the weekend.
- I drank quite a lot of infusions. Yummi Oriental: clove, cinnamon, orange, anis, fennel... Mhm!
- Now I achieved a status of - hopefully durable - good mood...
- ...And I did it through writing.
- Something is telling me that today I will write another Tickle.
- I am reading a nice one on "Robin Hood is Ba(ra)ck!"

Sometimes we should just remind ourselves that Now is such a precious time.

A.

I Had a Dream

2009-02-28T15:38:00.004+01:00

...In my dream I was actually cursing.
Why does it feel like there is something bugging me in my head?

It was a vision more than a sleeping phase of my life. I had my eyes closed but I knew I was wide awake.

There is not much to say but the deep feeling of a gigantic and not too fun misunderstanding. Although we know it's not.
I am not in the mood to repeat those thoughts out loud. They were not nice, after all.

Barcelona today is grey shaded. I cannot help recall other moments of my past. From Bologna to New York, and eventually to Barcelona, with its lame look of catalan superiority. Are we really superior anyway? Covering Japan, Kenya, United Kingdom, Brazil and few more places I happened to visit.

I am overwhelmed. I am not in the mood. I am sick. I am, and that's an achievement, some might say. Holding tight until the next dawn, I can only keep the hope candle alive.

There has been a wave of bad news and yet, my energy didn't abandon me in full. But the task of keeping it safe from death seems to go beyond my power. I don't like to think that I'm depending on nobody. I just fake a smile and keep going. But the curses come back to my head.

This whole situation is soon to be clarified and I won't help explaining each and every step of this apparently unclear stream of consciousness.

Give me Time. I need more time. I am seeking A+ Facts. Would love to have a long list to fill out this post. ...Still seeking with no apparent success. For now, the plot is tangled and I will do my best to smooth some tight knots. Will get back soon with brighter words.

Monday's New Moon Effects

2009-02-27T09:14:00.009+01:00

Good morning... I should say.

This week has been completely ruled by Monday's New Moon, which opened some new channels of communication and abruptly stirred my thoughts. New Moons tend to sort some magical effects, no matter what, but I particularly felt this one, located in watery Pisces.

Of course, it did inspire me to write a few words and this is the result, posted in my latest Tickle. I hope you find it enjoyable as I wrote it with open heart and a wide smile on my face.

It's finally Friday, again, and this is the best piece of news and A+ Fact of the week. I will be back soon with some spare ideas I'd like to share.

For now, I look forward for some feedback on my Tickle.

A.

Mine, You Won't Forget

2009-02-23T22:27:00.007+01:00

These are nights to breath deep
Nights to achieve
Nights to win
No prize, only myself

Without any space or time
I am just a rainbow
And you can look for my roots
Lost ones

Every word has been said
Every step has been walked
Running into life
Now, only the shadow of me

Hold me
Like there is no good-bye
Tickle my soul
Like I'll be in you forever

And when tomorrow comes
Only the shadow of me
You will see
And my eyes will shine

Nothing else but life
Now, these sheets, our shelter
You will be back to your water
Hermosa, I will sing

The game of us
Lasting 'till the next moon
Your eyes, I keep
Mine, you won't forget

Mine, you won't forget
Arianna Neri, December 2006. NYC

Women I Trust

2009-02-22T21:18:00.004+01:00

Bright, Sunny, Warm, Refreshing and Recharging Sunday... Thank you Barcelona for the 20°C miracle! The beach today was absolutely stunning, just like a well-composed painting. Every single bit of it seemed to perfectly balance together in a melting pot of rays of sun, juicy food, breathtaking weather conditions, kids playing with sand and hip yet corky people, fun to watch.

I am completely relaxed.

Not too relaxed if I think that tomorrow is actually Monday again but all in all I don't feel like complaining. Why bother? I am not going to be able to change the course of the calendar anyway. Or maybe... Practicing a bit more... Should give it a try!

Well, to close with velvet red curtains this soon-to-be-finished weekend, I am sharing the first series of the Women I Trust collection. Their music is the cherry on the cake of the weekend.

This is just so witty and energizing, it makes me want to start jumping on my bed. Not a good idea though, considering its not-too-fashiony shape. And the video is so unrealistically hilarious... They all manage to look so serious and in-the-part while I am simply cracking up (Camera Obscura, Lloyd, I'm ready to be heartbroken).

Ok, she is the pioneer of this genre. Absolutely fantastic in this surreal dance with an even more surreal male partner. Thank you Feist (One Evening)!

Unfortunately no official video for Regina Spektor's Hotel Song. But please do watch this because the whole song is played a cappella and I find it extremely tingly and ticklish.

Off to watch The Reader, let's see if someone really deserves an Academy Award here!

Oh, today I created one of my new and I believe soon-to-be-famous quotes...

"Life is like Bowling. Mind the Balls, Visualize the Balls." Arianna Neri, mad-hatter and wannabe writer. 1981 - Present

Barcelona in Technicolor

2009-02-22T16:48:00.005+01:00

Kids playing at Barceloneta

Pink view from my apartment, Calle Princesa

Right after the wedding, San Pere Square

Early morning in Plaza Real

Barcelona Black & White

2009-02-22T03:29:00.004+01:00

The tower of Santa Maria del Mar, Born area.

Narrow streets in the Gothic Quarter.

The City Hall Square.

Once More, a Few Words on Karma

2009-02-22T02:34:00.009+01:00

What a Lovely, Energizing, Peaceful and Powerful Night! Good Karma is coming under the blanket with me tonight.

Put together five women, an old and charming Barcelona flat, food & drinks, the scary and yet amazing feeling of "we are in this together" and the result might be a vibrant night of words and thoughts.

Chatting about Life, Love and Longings... Getting to a few, bright conclusions.

We are in power, we are the sole responsible for our own failure/success. We have the sacred task of accomplishing our own path, our own journey, our own happiness. At all - respectable - cost.

I love to share. I adore these nights of warmth. I am enticed by the endless potency of souls. Togetherness is capable of joining forces and reducing the fear. We are in this together.

I feel good. An amazing A+ Fact.

Late night, I wish myself and everyone I love golden dreams served on creamy clouds.

Freedom of Information

2009-02-20T20:57:00.007+01:00

I thought I'd spend sometime talking about Berlusconi's new pearls of wisdom. Although I am also aware that it is somehow a waste of time to discuss about someone who is sooooo out of space.

I feel like doing it for the sake of freedom of information. Italy is getting closer to a Level 0 Democracy, dictator-based, banana republic. I resume and link to some of his latest moments of endless knowledge:

1. During a speech in Cagliari, he happens to mention the sad and unforgettable past of the Argentinian desaparecidos. So far, so good. If it was not because his comment - summarized - seems to have sounded like "how good were those times when they would just open the doors of the flying airplane and let them out, in the middle of the sea"... Very nice, that was the reaction of the international diplomacy, so far.

2. During his meeting with Mr. Brown (UK), he experienced an illuminating rush of free thinking. His creative thought-flow led to a genius idea, immediately aborted as too close to a non-capitalistic model... "Maybe we should nationalize banks...". Now, there wouldn't be anything wrong in brainstorming with your economic team, in private. But that's so not Berlusconi's style. He enjoys improvisation, as we all know, and we love him for that. Go Silvio Go freestyle.

3. And what about Mills (his bribed UK lawyer)?

Yes, what about it. AlJazeera reported the news on Feb. 17, along with BBC, The International Herald Tribune, The Australian and The Financial Times. International TVs and media joined together to report on our Prime Minister, both defendant and corruptor in this almost surreal story. Ok, so what about Italian TVs and other media? Italy's most popular "TV living room" Porta a Porta must have had a special night, devoted to this shameful and yet true piece of news. Right? Right??? Nooo, why bother? RAI, Italian public television, didn't even bother going to the trial... What, are you surprised? Berlusconi's involvement in bribery cases is no news for us.

Even The Economist talked about it but still, maybe RAI is right and this isn't anything Italians need to hear about.

But if we give a closer look at the whole Old Boot status, things are not going so bad for our friend The Prime Minister. In fact, the so-called opposition just faced the resignation of Mr. Veltroni, its impotent and 100% failed leader.

All in all, to make things even, no matter how bad Berlusconi behaves - and he is as bad as we can possibly imagine him to be - the rest of Italy floats in chaos with a 0% growth index and a 0 effective opposition.

Maybe we shouldn't even be calling it a dictatorship as he has no rivals to face... Actually, it's most likely to be the contrary as our dearest Mr. Veltroni proved during his 14 months of presidency of the opposition. He struggled hard, put all his best efforts, didn't sleep at night to find a way to GET CLOSER to Berlusconi. He wanted the Bananas Dictator to LIKE HIM, to work with him, to cooperate with him... Maybe even to hug him. And what did Chavez... Oh no, sorry, Berlusconi did? Nothing. He didn't even call Willy Veltroni to give him a proper Adios, goodbye farewell. Nope.

Ok. I am not angry. I am not. I am not even disappointed. Not anymore. Not even close to rebel. Not my style.

I am simply, deeply, purely scared by the regime Italy is becoming, by his power and possessions, by the non-reaction mood that Italians are carrying on with, handling every new drop of madness with a impassible look: "we are not surprised anymore, we've seen this whole story before..."

So what are we going to do? Just passively look at this man, this creepy tiny and overly powerful creature taking over everything we are left. The actual beauty and enormous potential of a country rich in history, culture, brains and ideas. It is - almost - all gone. And we will need more than just a few bananas to find energy to put this back together, when our close-to-75 years old Prime Minister is going to - miraculously - leave this Planet and set us free.

Amen.

P.S. I am not an activist, I am not left nor right wing, I don't reside in Italy, I don't have anything personal against any journalist/press resource. But I wonder, where did integrity go? Where has the willingness to provide The News gone? How can journalists and media go to bed at peace every night, knowing that they are deliberately not providing their service to the community through a fair level of information? And, most of all, why am I informed of every single bit of news (and past stories) of our sparkling political scene? Isn't sometimes worth it to click here and there and try to see beyond the veil?

Freedom of Information. That is all I am talking about but apparently it's not a real fashionable concept nowadays...

I might be back soon

2009-02-19T09:07:00.005+01:00

It looks like my Mac is finally ready to come back home.

I had to have several fights with the Apple retailer to have my problem fixed at no expenses.

But apparently the final score of this hard-to-win match is:

Arianna 1 - System 0 (please consider this as a A+++ Fact with triple points).

Will keep you posted.

This week there's been so many news that I really feel like writing about them. Hopefully the weekend will give me the chance.

I am not gone...

2009-02-17T19:18:00.007+01:00

I haven't abandoned my blog. I swear...

The facts are these: my MacBook, my lovely white laptop, happened to break. Nothing major I must say but a crack on the white plastic around the keyboard. How do you call that, by the way?

One morning, a few months ago, I woke up and opened it to check my emails and I saw this tiny but real crack. One of the sides was actually already detached from the base and I heard my heart bumping in my chest... How the heck did it happen? Well, my research led me to the conclusion that a lot of MacBooks broke in the same exact spot. Don't ask me why. I don't even want to know.

I longed a few months. Waiting to see if a miracle could actually happen and the crack could fix by itself. Of course, not only it didn't fix but I also started seeing the same exact issue on the opposite side of the plastic. Oh jeez, this is a conspiracy!

Monday my laptop was finally brought to the assistance center by my flatmate Corey, who experienced a Hard Drive apparent death during the weekend. It was such a relief to know that the white plastic would eventually be replaced... No, not that easy.

At the center, they gave him a very hard time and I had to call them myself, threatening to file an official complaint to the Apple assistance, to ensure to get it fixed without extra expenses (yes, my laptop has no warranty BUT Apple is taking care of this problem as its fault).

Anyway, it's all good BUT I have no laptop. Which makes me think how dependent from the machine I actually am. I am so freaked out when I come home from work and cannot surf throughout my usual sites of horoscopes, daily news, show videos, etc... Hopefully I will get it before the end of the week although I highly doubt it. I gave them such a hard time that they might as well make me - morally - pay for the damage.

In the meantime, here is the link to my last Tickle, called Your Body is Your Temple. To keep you hanging in there while I am out of the surfing world!

The only A+ Fact I can think about....
- I am detoxing from the WWW for a few days, ready to come back stronger than ever.
A.

February 14th. Story-Telling...

2009-02-14T00:19:00.008+01:00

So That Day of the year finally came. Saint Valentine. And then I wonder, first of all, who the hell was S. Valentine and why is he remembered to be the protector of lovers?

According to an interesting article published on History.com: "One legend contends that Valentine was a priest who served during the third century in Rome. When Emperor Claudius II decided that single men made better soldiers than those with wives and families, he outlawed marriage for young men — his crop of potential soldiers. Valentine, realizing the injustice of the decree, defied Claudius and continued to perform marriages for young lovers in secret. When Valentine's actions were discovered, Claudius ordered that he be put to death. Other stories suggest that Valentine may have been killed for attempting to help Christians escape harsh Roman prisons where they were often beaten and tortured. According to one legend, Valentine actually sent the first 'valentine' greeting himself. While in prison, it is believed that Valentine fell in love with a young girl — who may have been his jailor's daughter — who visited him during his confinement. Before his death, it is alleged that he wrote her a letter, which he signed 'From your Valentine,' an expression that is still in use today. Although the truth behind the Valentine legends is murky, the stories certainly emphasize his appeal as a sympathetic, heroic, and, most importantly, romantic figure. It's no surprise that by the Middle Ages, Valentine was one of the most popular saints in England and France. While some believe that Valentine's Day is celebrated in the middle of February to commemorate the anniversary of Valentine's death or burial — which probably occurred around 270 A.D — others claim that the Christian church may have decided to celebrate Valentine's feast day in the middle of February in an effort to 'christianize' celebrations of the pagan Lupercalia festival [...]."

My view of S. Valentine day is quite neutral, I must say. I am pleased to have finally recognized a evolutive path that my attitude towards Love undertook... I recently wrote a Tickle on it, which I hope you all enjoy. I must say - for the record - that I wanted the title to be "The Field where the Apples Grow Wild" but it was changed last minute by the editors and there's not much I can do about it... Go ahead reading it and please do share your view!

And remember, even when things are going completely wrong (...just like now...), you are meant to Love yourself and your Temple.

A+ Facts of Today:
- Vegan dinner with friends, always warm to have loved ones around.
- Friday, what else can I say?
- Nice plans among friends for tomorrow - will disclose soon.
- Avoided the shopping rush that almost took control over me today.

A.

I am therefore I play

2009-02-11T19:33:00.011+01:00

I am lucky enough to have friends who play with me.

People that understand my game. A way of living that can seem childish or irresponsible.

Taking decisions without over-pondering.

Allowing over-reactions to situations and emotions.

Traveling, body and mind, like there is no tomorrow.

So here I am in two playful versions I love.

Diva Ari N. 1: Marilyn... Well, not much to say. An icon who has been remembered way too much for her downfall and depression, which led to her premature death. But who hasn't been fairly recognized for her supreme intelligence, her superb sense of humor and her delicate sensitivity.

You can actually see quite well that it's a montage and I must say that the ensemble makes me laugh!

Diva Ari N. 2: Audrey in Roman Holidays (modern version)... Uhuh! Once more, we talk about the ultimate heiress of elegance and style. No one dared to achieve her unique level of perfection. The combination of naive looks and intriguing lines in her movies will always be remembered.

However, in Roman Holidays she was definitely not alone riding the scooter... Which leads me to a question: where are all the Gregory Peck gone?

...I played enough for today. I already feel better.

Time to go back to adult games such as preparing dinner and reading some captivating news... A.

Where are the A+ Facts gone?

2009-02-10T20:57:00.006+01:00

I am still here. Even tougher, maybe. The facts as of today are the following:

- Obama's stimulus plan got approved by the Senate, which I deem good news more for the morale than other factors. Some changes occurred to the Senate version.... I still don't have an opinion about it. Here in Spain I don't think we'll perceive an immediate result but at least there is someone daring to say "Let's try to change and be the change"... He is not the first one saying it but maybe one of the few trying to put it into practice on this side of Earth.

- I am still employed. Considering the worldwide shivers that the job market is undergoing, I take it as a privilege... (p.s. bad news... over 163,000 jobs were cut in January 2009).

- Barcelona is slowly moving towards Spring. It is a nice feeling. Like waking up again after months of lethargy. Today we had an amazing 17° Celsius and, in spite of the variable sky, it was a pleasure to walk in the street.

- I am getting closer to my trip to Egypt and that is my closest dream for now.

- My new life regime is still work in progress but let's say that I am moving forward towards 100% healthy lifestyle.

- I am not in my most communicative phase but I am doing my best to write, say, otherwise express my feelings...

Once more, I need to remind myself that Life is Now and try to figure out how does it sound...

A+ Fact for today:

- I received Karma Cola and spent £4 from Amazon.co.uk. (cool!!!!)

Friday Balance-Sheet

2009-02-06T11:26:00.015+01:00

If I had the power, I'd restructure the weekly schedule as follows:

- 3 Mondays in a Row: Work Work Work.

- 1 Wednesday in the middle: I Loooove the End of the week.

- 3 Fridays (aka Saturdays): Weekend Weekend Weekend!

To make a long story short, I'd work 4 days a week and rest 3 but I'd like the weekend to maintain the name "Friday" for 3 days in a row. Because I truly love the sound of the word Friday. For me, it's like Free-Day. Being Italian, if I read the word without pronunciation, it would really sound free-day. I adore it.

So, where do I stand? What's new?

And what about the Sky?

I haven't really been taking care of myself. I have fully devoted my body to work in the past week or so and this is another valid reason for me to love the upcoming few days. My diet got a bit abandoned but it's not precisely easy to maintain a healthy lifestyle in hotels... Especially because I am a big fan of buffets.

The Hesperia Tower Hotel is quite an adventure itself (link to picture) with its wicked architecture from Richard Rogers... A definitive interesting experience for hi-tech lovers!

I have been quite disconnected from the worldwide ups and downs so I don't have much to comment. One interesting - and extremely scary - piece of news was the summary of the 2007 Executive Pay. To be honest, I read it with crescent shock and astonishment and I am very curious to get my hands on the 2008 one.

Top compensation (& benefits) package for 2007: John Thain, (former) Merrill Lynch CEO, with over $83 million in total. Luckily, his request for a $10 million bonus for 2008 ("I saved Merrill Lynch with the Bank of America operation") hasn't been approved and his (and others CEOs) attitude during 2007-2008 has been judged by Vice-President Joe Biden as "offensive for sensibilities".

At the bottom of the black list, two names stroke my attention: Steve Jobs (Apple) and Jerry Yang (Yahoo!).

Both of them received $1. Yes, 1 dollar. But with one significant difference. While Steve Jobs holds 99% in shareholders return (well, at least he takes accountability for the company's performance... Up = salary - profits. Down = salary - losses... Or at least this is the theory of it), Mr. Yang resigned from his CEO role in November 2008 and no wonder why his shareholders return marks a grey -9%. Many bad choices during his management career (e.g. the multiple-failed deal with Microsoft) led to one sole conclusion and Mr. Yang went back to Director of Technology and Strategy (will he be able to prove that his Guide to the WWW is still a hit?).

All in all, my conclusion is that the world is overwhelmed enough not to bother too much about these people's paycheck and I highly admire those taking responsibility for their companies' performance. We are all surprised because now there is One Man who tries to redesign the asset of the economic world and, while the medias list the possible (tragic?) consequences of the government intervention into the executive (macro)salary micro-world, I can only think about one word: Integrity.

...Which leads me to one question... Where has Integrity gone?

Now, one quick look at the Sky.

Monday, February 9th is a day to remember and please do mark it in your calendar.

We'll have a Full Moon in Leo during the Lunar Eclipse... An overwhelming and possibly confusing sky will rule and all I can say is that we need to respond with gentleness and grounded feet. It's not all lost and there will be great chances for ideas and plans to be at least developed in their drafts. It won't be a time to realize things but our brains will be stirring concepts faster than usual. I recommend a very interesting article by Astrodispatch that defines the Moon in Leo as ruled by the world Accentuation, which I particularly like.

I believe I said it all for now... So I will enjoy this accentuated days and do my best to remain grounded.

Joker once said...

2009-02-02T23:08:00.011+01:00

...So many things to do and so little time.

Yesterday I spent the day editing some pieces I wrote. Someone once said that the real writer is the one who masters the art of editing (should I add this to my wish-list?) because everyone is able to write a decent first draft... But who is actually capable of cutting in pieces his-her own creation for the sake of the reader's pleasure?

Well, I don't think I master it but I did my best to fix the sound of words and ensure their smooth flow. Actually, there wasn't a specific reason for me to do so as my next tickle has already been published and will appear on S. Valentine on Tickled by Life.

Just one small thought - as I will have to concentrate on blogging later on throughout the week - I am good. I don't know why, if it's Venus entering Mars, Jupiter's effects or me growing stronger. But I have never felt this secure before. And it's such a powerful inner sensation...

A+ Facts as of Monday Feb. 2 (and it's not even Midnight!):

- Feeling mighty and centered.

- Know where I stand and why. Uhuh!

- Writing and - if not writing - recording thoughts on newly discovered Garage Band.

- Wish-list is growing but will fix it soon.

- Still raining and no depression yet.

- Feel like meditating. Should start again.

- Ongoing diet. My body is reacting very well, no more pain!!!

- I solemnly promise here and now to be back soon with the hilarious story of my cat and his close friends, The Pigeons.

Recompiling Saturday's Ideas

2009-01-31T21:05:00.006+01:00

I am blaming the rain now. All my active plans for the day are gone due to the current weather condition... No shoes pictures, no chakra talking, sorry. I spent my day watching movies and reading books.

I am a full-time worker, quite committed - and lately busy - I must say, so I don't feel guilty for having devoted some spare time to relaxing and enriching activities.

Book: I am still finishing Eat, Pray, Love, beautifully written, witty, contemporary and scarily real. I am amazed by Elizabeth Gilbert, who shows courage throughout her self-development journey. And I am not only referring to the actual trip through Italy (eat), India (pray) and Indonesia (Love). She is able to dig into herself in search for answers... The endless quest, I would say, for soul food. Her style is engaging and her discoveries could illuminate many of us.

Movie: Slumdog Millionaire (by D. Boyle). A modern fairy-tale filled with pain, sorrow, karma, family issues, social revolution and redemption. I loved every single bit of it and I found myself getting extremely involved into the main character's adventure through Life. A Must See for those who like Hope.

Now I am putting together some pieces I wrote in the past, just as a Saturday night recreation. It's fun and hard to manage your life as a naturally lazy writer... You have to believe in it every day, every second, every word. It is a side-activity that requires a lot of attention and commitment... Which I didn't have in the past, busy as I was working, studying and living in NY. I like the challenge of balancing my life between work and words, definitely more doable now. I find it quite thrilling to come back home every night and open this blog to devote some time to it. Although I know that certain - admirable - people are able to stay awake all night to write and produce and create... And then go to work! How do they manage?

As a justification, I must say that my (real) job involves writing, creativity, research and a flair for reality, aspects I really love and enjoy. So all in all I test my most sacred skills every day/all day long!

Actually, next week I will be the host of one of my conferences and I am quite excited as there is a lot of expectation around it. One of the aspects of my job that helps me the most is the need to be constantly communicating a message. It can be part of your team, a business partner or a perspective client... You have to be able to deliver a message. A real-life school, I must say.

Maybe this is another side-reason for this blog. I feel the need to communicate and I am also quite certain that I am the most devoted reader of these words. I read them like they were not mine. I use them like a notebook to recall ideas and feelings and concepts and inspirations.

It is hard and fundamental to apply memories to our daily life. It appears quite clearly in both Eat, Pray, Love and Slumdog Millionaire.

In the book, the main character tries hard to heal herself through constant questioning and flashbacks of who she used to be, before choosing to fly on her "re/discovery trip".

In the movie, Jamail has to answer questions to win the contest Who Wants to be a Millionaire. He comes from Bombay slums and has no formal education. The memories of his troubled past will assist him in what I deem one of the most magical journeys ever.

I truly hope to tickle your curiosity and get you to experience both of them...

I am off. Now you can watch the Slumdog Millionaire trailer, no?

A+ Facts:

- Having been daydreaming about random holidays and places. I love Lonely Planets.

- Movie + Book made me smile and cry.

- My room is so comfortable that I would never leave it.

- Next week my communication and organisational skills will be tested, again. Love it.

- My cat didn't eat any pigeon today... (will tell you the whole story another day)

- I managed to stay away from wine, as prescribed by my new diet.

- For the first time in ages, I didn't get depressed because of the rain.

Live from the World Economic Forum, Davos

2009-01-31T11:20:00.009+01:00

Live from Davos: This is what is happening these days in Davos, Switzerland, during the World Economic Forum 2009.

In the meantime, a Refugee Camp Simulation has been set up for the worldwide CEOs and other powerful representatives to experiment the "reality" as a refugee. The simulation was sponsored by the UNHCR (United Nations High Commissioner for Refugees) and developed by Crossroads Open Village (an Hong Kong NGO).

What is going to be the practical outcome of this "life altering experience"? And, most of all, are the endless talks and reports of the WEF2009 going to have any positive effect on the present - and apparently long term - crisis?

One voice among many "President Obama is the greenest person [in the White House]. He is pushing hard for a dramatic and bold move in the right direction. If other governments do the same, then we can make the change to a low-carbon future" Al Gore, Vice-President of the United States of America (1993-2001) and Nobel Laureate 2007.

BBC Live Coverage

I am not the only one who loves Shoes

2009-01-30T23:55:00.007+01:00

Citing the BBC website "A sculpture of an enormous bronze-coloured shoes has been erected in Iraq to honour the journalist who threw his shoes at ex-US President George W. Bush."

The article arrives like a breath of fresh air although this is everything but a solved issue. Mr. Zaidi, the Hero and journalist, is currently waiting for his trial and could face up to 15 years of prison. However, he dared acting against the so-called (ex) most powerful man in the world, responsible for the 6-year-long war in Iraq and other atrocities not suitable to be discussed in a Lady's Blog.

Let's be honest. I would love to throw one of my shoes at Bush as well. And for me to get rid of one of my shoes is a Big Deal. If I had to choose, I'd go for something really symbolic like this pair, which I Love!I think this would represent a fiery attack to everything I despise and could be used to hurt with class quite a few people. Funny enough, most of them are powerful politicians and top (...Wall Street?) business executives. I wonder if they'd be able to appreciate the style of this pair of heels.

...I don't think they deserve to be hit by something so valuable...

Together Time & the Shameful Bonuses

2009-01-30T12:49:00.006+01:00

I cannot express fully how good I feel about today being Friday. I am tired, exhausted, sick and needy to switch off.

For this reason, tonight we have organized what Corey properly called "Together Time" - which I truly love. The plan is not to have a plan and to play it freestyle with food, movies, wine, sweets, music, laughter, secrets, the sticky-note game and - if the weather allows it - a trip to the beach to scream at the Moon (newly born).

This week Eclipses are extremely powerful and I suggest you all read this Transit link to give you an idea of what is going on above our heads. I am experiencing the strangest sensations ever. My mood is rollercoastering with no control and I am not even bothering to try to fix it.

The general situation - within myself - is not bad though. I am slowly but constantly learning to detach from whatever happens around me. My street is somewhere else and no matter where I am physically, I can turn in and see things from my perspective, which I also have decided to be the most appropriate one to follow, right now.

Do not misunderstand me. I listen and process suggestions and voices around me but I cannot allow too much confusion to get on my way. It is a delicate moment made of silk strings I am the only one able to move.

This weekend the weather forecast announced horrible news, rain, cold and wind... As a matter of fact, I should not complain and take advantage of this forced reclusion in the house to do 1,000 things.

As promised, I will try to cover 2 aspects of my life I think will help enormously (me and this blog): Chakras and Shoes.

A+ Fact:
- It is Friday indeed!

One quick bottomline note: I Heart Obama. (p.s. Follow the Link!)

Finally (almost) Found Friday

2009-01-29T21:29:00.014+01:00

So tomorrow is Friday and to be honest I feel great about it.

Today I saw on my boss' desk the tiny Buddha statue I brought to him from Japan. It made me think about those days. A far memory, I'd say.

Stress was all over the place in the office but I managed to maintain the coolness and do my things. You'd better have some antibodies well operating to protect your organism against stress threats. I think I do have some of those... I didn't know but they are fighting hard to preserve my balance and lower my level of stress, as indicated by my new life regime and health protection scheme.

How to ensure you do have them? Well, I guess the key is to cure yourself from within. Chakras are a fundamental player of the game and I have decided that this weekend I will find time to discuss this further.

Isn't this a perfectly suitable year to heal our own selves? (as it seems the the World is not precisely an easy place to rescue).

Another thing I am planning to do is to take pictures of my shoes and let you know more about their stories. Each of them relates to a specific moment in my life and I believe it will be an interesting way to disclose some facts (A+ to Z-) about me.

One more thing... In doubt, try to smile at yourself in the mirror. If you like what you see, you are half way in the process.

A+ Facts for Today:

- My dinner was so healthy that it's not even funny.

- My cat Nietzsche is purring next to me.

- Friday is almost here.

- No news , good news. Actually, the first news of the day was an A+ one (read post below).

- I learned some new info about blogging. Will share soon.

The House of Stimulus

2009-01-29T09:29:00.003+01:00

This is the first day in quite a long time that the first news I have the chance to read is actually positive.

http://www.nytimes.com/2009/01/29/opinion/29thu1.html?partner=permalink&exprod=permalink

A+ Fact:
- The first news of this morning is POSITIVE (and it comes from the NYT)!

Mercury & Others A+ Facts in Turmoil Times

2009-01-28T22:12:00.011+01:00

While last Monday will be remembered as the day when 75,000 jobs were cut across the world, Obama is trying to have his stimulus plan approved to get the U.S. shaky economy back on track. He is also showing an interesting change of attitude towards the Middle East. I don't feel like expressing my opinion, yet, but I believe that a finally-balanced and more diplomatic approach is on its way.

In the meantime, Italian Prime Minister Berlusconi is surely busy drafting a new law to protect himself against countless lawsuits. This is really a sad topic. After tons of laws issued to save his ass, what's next? I am sure some new moves are on their way.

Zapatero, in Spain, finally showed up on National TV answering questions about the crisis. It was about time, I must say. In the meantime, the Popular Party (PP) is being hit by a weird and confusing scandal involving private investigations to PP members... Meaning, we'd better stick to what we have now (Zapatero) and hope he is capable of pushing for change.

And the rest of the world is assessing its own, personal mess... I am sick of reading news, at least for today.

Sometimes I wonder what is my role in this dramatic scene? I move economy, that is a fact, as the crisis hasn't given me a reason - yet - to stop buying what I want and what I need. I work, another proven fact, doing my best to generate occasions for business intelligence to benchmark. I make plans, third and last point, to escape this frame and get the best of this not-so-bright 2009.

However, I feel that this new year brought with itself a new wave of energy, burning inside me with hot sparkles of inspiration. I am writing like I have never done before and using this Blog as a scrap-book for further reference.

If my plan goes through, I will need to remember how I was feeling today. I hope. I do have a lot of hopes.

Mercury, ruler of my sign and of Wednesdays, is here to help me communicate this change that is happening fast in my personal path.

So here I am with a skinny list of A+ Facts for today:

- I read the article mentioned in my previous post.

- My dinner was just as healthy as those served in hospital, tasty and colorful though.

- Barcelona today looked friendly, especially during my trip to the Boqueria Market.

- I talked to my mom. We will travel to Egypt in March.

- My lifestyle is rapidly shifting towards health.

...This is not an A+ Fact, yet, but a wannabe marvel about to be born. Let's hope I get THAT answer soon! And, most of all, let's keep fingers crossed while waiting for feedbacks.

P.S. Stay tuned for details!

Meanwhile, you can watch "The fool looks at the finger that points to the sky", by Aaron Bradbury, a sound and touching metaphor of our daily shock towards this caotic world. http://www.bbc.co.uk/dna/filmnetwork/A13778256

A.

The Fine Art of Finding Your Spot

2009-01-28T12:29:00.018+01:00

After having found this http://www.paulgraham.com/cities.html, I felt the need to briefly chat with one of my colleagues. One quick note: please do read this article as it's an inspiring piece that could serve as a guideline when you are about to choose your next step.

These were the conclusions:

From: V.M. Sent: 28 January 2009 12:52 To: A.N.
Subject:
I'd always imagined Barcelona would be the ideal place—that it would basically be London with good weather. But when I finally tried living there a couple years ago, it turned out not to be. The message Barcelona sends is: you should live better. Life in Barcelona is very cool. It's probably the place with less power Europe where someone from Northern Europe would feel most at home. But it's not humming with ambition.

From: A.N. Sent: 28 January 2009 14:22 To: V.M.
Subject: RE:
When I decided to move back from New York to Barcelona, I knew I was giving up the Achieve Mode. I didn’t know what to expect precisely, besides good weather and easier lifestyle. Life in Barcelona is very relaxed. It’s possibly the warmest place you could choose among industrial, Western cities. But its Slow Mode and Laziness are starting to get on my nerves.

From: V.M. Sent: 28 January 2009 14:28 To: A.N.
Subject: RE:
When you decide to move out from a city because you feel a need for different messages, you change the game into a more active (and interesting) one. Its you now sending the messages (and don’t bother with who the audience is). All that matters when you are the voice is how you feel towards the new and unknown paths that will draw the messages of your future).

From: A.N. Sent 28 January 2009 14:30 To: V.M.
Subject: RE:
I tend to listen to my inner voice and try to turn its requests into reality. When New York was chosen, there was a sound need for movement, speed and challenges. Once they were accomplished, the needs shifted towards sun, light, time and human dimension… Lately, the voice is only talking about airy, spiritual and abstract concepts. It’s never been more appropriate to say that there is no place like your – inner – home.

Now my question is: if you live in a city where you go food-shopping at the local market, is General Laziness the price that you have to pay?

I hope to have energy to come back to this later.

A+ Fact:
- I read that article.

Health First - Reality Check

2009-01-27T20:04:00.004+01:00

I think a solemn decision has been made.
Time to change a few things in my life, starting with my diet.
It seems like my organism is asking for new lymph... Ok, I answered.
Should admit though that I had a sound instant of panic.
Today I did not feel good. Shaking health, reality check.
I need to modify several habits... Am I ready?
...I don't really feel like talking about it nor about anything else.

List - short - of A+ Facts:
- Decision made. I can do it. Improving my lifestyle, starting NOW.
- I drank 2 full cups of mixed herbs infusion for nervous stomach (is my stomach nervous, or is it me...?).
- I worked. A lot has been done today. So, I am nervous because I work too much, ah?!
- I bought a bunch of lavander to sleep better. Placed it in a vase next to my bed.
- Tomorrow is Wednesday, which all in all is not too bad.
- Let's not say it loud but maybe Friday we have a plan, a fun one...

Need more A+ Facts. They will definitely follow once I make the change happen.
This is going to be an important year, I can feel it.

...Almost forgot another A+ Fact: I saw the cute beach bar guy in the street. He hugged me.

Maybe Mondays are Necessary...

2009-01-26T21:13:00.006+01:00

Just got back from the event on Women and Afghanistan (Mujeres contra el olvido y la impunidad, organised by ASDHA, in cooperation with the Catalan Institute for Human Rights, directed by my friend David Bondia).

Got quite impacted of course, as the pictures were mostly portraits of women and kids, hurt by the endless conflicts in their unfortunate country.

One conclusion. Maybe Mondays are Necessary.

I got to meet a special woman, Ms. Rosa Roisinblit, Vice-President of the Plaza de Mayo Grandmothers' Organisation. It was powerful to kiss her as she smells of history and pain. Their story is about Hope and Fights and I believe it was a great present for me to get to see and exchange a few trivial words with her, about her recent trip on a cruise across the Mediterranean.

Now I am back home and there is so much to be done that I don't really know where to begin. But I feel that there is no need nor time to stress about it. After having gently touched the reality of those people, I know once more how blessed I am.

A+ Facts of the Day:

- I am a lucky person: young, restless, energetic and without close experience to pain and sorrow.

- The pictures from Gervasio Sánchez were touching and real. They opened a hole in my heart.

- I have eyes to see the truth. Ears to listen to its words. Voice to spread the message.

- Last but not least, I do have hands to place my tiny brick on the wall of hope.

Now I have got to go back to those details that require my attention (e.g. dinner, shower, emails, unfinished books and notes). But my energy flows free today and I feel part of the boundary-less movement towards tomorrow.

P.S. I hope I am not infringing any copyright posting this picture (by Mr. Sánchez). In case I am, it will be promptly removed.

Relevant Links:

http://www.afgancat.org/

http://www.idhc.org/

htts://www.abuelas.org.ar/

Is Monday really Necessary?

2009-01-26T13:49:00.008+01:00

Meteo/Geographical Information:
Location: Barcelona, Catalonia, Spain.
Detailed map of the day: Home (Born) - Office (Eixample).
Sky: Fiction Blue throughout the day.
Temperature: currently 8°C (feels like: 3°C).
Lowest - expected - point of the day: 7°C (which I believe will feel like 1°C).

Some words on the need to have Mondays.

My horoscope (Jeff Prince) said I am currently affected by a tough case of Mondayitis. Sounds about right. I do feel it. I was so comfortable in bed. My cat was sleeping next to me, his face on the pillow. And I was actually having a nice dream going on. Don't remember the topic but definitely not related to Mondays.

My question is: Do we really need to work 5 days a week? Wouldn't I produce more if I knew I have only 4 days to activate myself?

Pointless to complain as it looks like I do have to work on Mondays, trying to survive the virus that spreads around my organism on this unlucky day.

Tonight I am joining the opening of a 3-day event on Women and Afghanistan. At least a couple of hours will be well spent.

...I will work on the "what do you want from life" issue for the rest of the day.

Tiny - provisional - list of A+ facts:
- I had a nice breakfast: coffee, yogurt and banana (+ 2 glasses of water);
- I don't think I cursed at anyone, yet;
- My communication skills led me to send a nice email to my boss (doing my best to help out);
- I finished a task (a report) that I usually postpone forever perfectly on time;
- My flatmate and close friend Corey sent me an email thanking me for the nice weekend: proving I did spread good vibes around.

More A+ notes at the end of the day, hopefully. Now I have to go back to the Giant Question.

What Goes Around, Comes Around

2009-01-25T18:38:00.016+01:00

Meteo/Geographical Information:
Location: Barcelona, Catalonia, Spain.
Detailed map of the day:
Barceloneta, Gothic Quarter, Born area.
Sky: Fiction Blue throughout the day.
Temperature: currently 11°C.
Highest point of the day: 21°C.

A few words after a Positively spent Sunday.

If our actions are in line with our principles, does it mean we are actually behaving well? And, if the answer is Yes, is our good behavior in line with the Universal Balance?

Ok, sticking to simpleness. How would you define Karma?

E.g. The fact that I most likely acted badly towards my ex boyfriend will lead to bad pains at one point in either this or future lives, doesn't it?

I am not sure whether this makes sense or not. One sure fact. I behaved well today.

List of A+ facts:

- Woke up and tried to smile as soon as I opened my eyes;
- I fed my cat before he could actually have a panic attack (12,30pm);
- In spite of my laziness, I managed to get out of the house;
- The day was spent amazingly;
- I stared at the beach, at the crystal clear horizon, at some cute guys bathing in water (Jan. 25???) and at some other silly things I captured with my camera;
- I drank 2 fresh juices and 1 infusion;
- The cute guy at the beach place told me "It is always beautiful to see you";
- My friends were around me throughout the day and I think I transmitted positive vibes;
- We discovered a new bar that immediately became one of our new favorites;
- I talked to my family and made them laugh;
- Gabri and I had a short briefing and we opened the Lonely Planet, we got excited;
- We checked practical details such as flights and maps (not for too long though);
- Now I am exhausted (of nothingness) but I am managing and writing;
- In a few minutes, I will take a hot hot hot shower and wear my PJ;
- I will make sure to cuddle and play with Nietzsche before going to bed;
- I am listening to Faithless, Crazy English Summer, and it is such a powerful song...

...Sunday, January 25. Mission - so far - accomplished.

2am Sticky Note

2009-01-25T01:40:00.010+01:00

...I don't feel that good tonight. I think this is a wake up call. Undone things are whispering guilt messages in my ears. Maybe tomorrow I won't remember their sound. Good idea to blog about it, then.

This Blog concept gives me a new sense of responsibility. I'd love to say "towards my readers".

Today I watched a documentary about journalism in Italy at the time of the Second Republic (1994 - today). It mentioned how professionals like Indro Montanelli or Enzo Biagi cared only about their readers, while putting together a piece, and why they are remembered as free and dedicated men, who devoted their life to Information. Believing in the right and need to spread the news.

This is the reason why Mr. Biagi ended up being a victim of a restrictive (legal?) measure that banned him from freely express his ideas on (national?) television (AKA Decreto Bulgaro).

Creating this page today meant to me a step forward to achieve my best level of Information constancy.

Going back to that Wake Up Call, a few things should be put into the To-Be-Done list:

- Open that Lonely Planet: get excited;

- Modify slightly my diet: + fruit & veggies +;

- Run 2-3 times/week: stop finding excuses;

- Devote 30"/day to personal meditation: turn in;

- Save xx Euro per month: this dream is cheap but not for free;

- Universal Love: highly recommendable;

- Individual Love: ...what?...;

- Material Things: digital voice recorder (wish-list for February);

- Movies: Millionaire.

- Last but not least, my favorite one... Use more time of my time.

I love it. Use More Time of My Time.

(I know that "Make a better use of my time" would be more "proper" but the crooked sound of my version is stickier.)

An Intro is Needed...

2009-01-24T16:59:00.003+01:00

I have always liked the idea of owning things...

Although not especially attached to them, the view of shelves of books, closets of shoes, boxes of old pictures, make up, tiny useless objects simply makes me smile.

Why? Wondering Why leads to doubts. As usual. I ponder if it is right to collect. I am a collector, how does it sound? I buy with enthusiasm and honesty. I like it, I want it. No particular guilt nor second thoughts... I don't believe in consequences when it comes to such a trivial thing like shopping.

However, the collection of items doesn't necessarily mean that I am a superficial person.

So I have decided.

Now I am about to abandon them all. I am opening this blog to collect thoughts and feelings about my future steps. Apparently, I have received a phone call from my soul.

I am still uncertain about it but yes, let's say that my soul rang me.

We had a brief discussion to set some points and coordinate on what has to be done next.

The endless search for soul food.

Another level of collection. This is what is attracting me now.

I have chosen to go. I have chosen to change. I have chosen to choose.

One day I am going to have to story-tell these days to the family I will hopefully generate. It will be a story filled with History, Love, Adventure, Light, Places & Faces... And, after having tried to recompile my life as a old, grumpy and a bit confused Grandma, one concept will stand out (let's hope): the adorable restlessness of my soul.

This is the reason for this Blog and I really feel like repeating it..

The Adorable Restlessness of My Soul.

I will collect small thoughts and, hopefully, huge conclusions.

I will tell you my story and put in writing my moves towards...

I will make sure to make you laugh and smile.

I will try to make you cry.

My Shoes are staring at me, right now. They are asking me if I am truly ready to store them in boxes and fly away.

This is what I am trying to figure out, I answer.

My Lonely Planet is laying in bed, next to me.

Eat Pray Love (Please, do read it) just joined us.

My cat Nietzsche is sleeping in between my legs.

But my soul is packing.

My feet are willing to walk.

And I just cannot help that smile...

Follow me... I will make my best to find juicy soul food for all of us.